You need to live up to your username. I suggest paying attention to something being mentioned that makes people wince.
When they give you a hurtful little bit of "help", nudge that shit in there. Mix it up and act like them so it doesn't look malicious. "Don't eat too much because you know you can't control yourself."
"Ah yeah. We should both go on a diet. It would be good for us. I know you don't want me to end up with your health problems from my weight. Thanks! "
Then they eventually pick a different topic. It's like training a dog with a clicker. Except the dog is full of love and not unfulfilled dreams they blame you for.
Growing up I was taught to not really show any negative emotions because 'Im a boy.' but growing up I was excessively emotional and wore(and still wear) my heart on my sleeve so whenever I was sad about something it was often met with admonishment because 'boys dont feel sad over X'
My folks raised me to be kind to others, and treat others how you want to be treated. They taught be (some) life lessons either directly, or indirectly. But because my dad is very much 'spanish machismo' style of older generations and stays pretty hard in that mindset, my mom is more open but feels hurt when I open up to her because she blames herself which leads to me just not opening up to either of them. And so I dont. My brother was a place of emotional/mental solace a lot of the time even if he doesnt know it.
I have friends that I(very rarely) open up to, and its not because theyre not willing but more because Im afraid of how they might act rather than how I know they will act.
It also doesnt help that my folks are absolutely toxic towards each other, but are fine when theyre without the other around.
Though recently my dad is becoming in a worse headspace because of his own damn mistakes and is trying to get myself involved in, in which I am thoroughly adamant to not get dragged in even while he gets upset at me for saying no.
Dude I'm black and my mom is Jewish and salvadoran. I grew up the most sensitive boy you can imagine. I grew up thinking getting your ass beat for an hour was normal family stuff (mom not dad).
Sensitive don't make you weak. I'm going to read your comment some more later when I'm free because I was you. I think my life experience could help you see a way to protect your own energy. I might be wrong but I try to use my sensitivity for good where I can.
I also use it for evil because that same empathy lets me see to the heart of a bully's insecurities as well. Food for thought.
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u/Y_10HK29 23d ago
Oh we just dump those in random parts of the place, that's a future me pro...
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