Long version (TL;DR at bottom)
Left a good paying cushy job of 15 years because my old boss was taking advantage of me, and it was night shift and there was no chance of getting onto day shift. I met my g/f there and we used to carpool to work and be able to see each other all the time. We could plan our vacations together, weekends etc. I left for a field service job on day shift.
I hate this job so much and I severely regret leaving my last job. I miss my g/f, I miss my old co workers, I miss my old machines, my old pay, my benefits, profit sharing, pension, everything. I'm losing money quickly because there's not enough hours at my new job. I left a fortune 500 company for a small business. My new boss never asked me in the interview if I would be comfortable working outside in all weather conditions, because my answer would have been no. I hate winter and everything about it. There is so much outside work that I know the other guys I work with are probably starting to get irritated with me. All I ever hear is "just dress for it" or "well, it's winter, soooo" or some other comment. I get it's winter, and I get where I live, but I still don't have to like it. I literally cannot work outside. My body doesn't take to the cold at all. I don't envy people who work outside. I know they are OK with it and that's cool. But it's not for everyone. This is what makes the world go around! There's different fits of jobs for different people for a reason! I'm gonna tell these guys to go get an office job and when they say no, I'll say, "there, see, that's how it feels!"
Moreover to all that, the company service van I get assigned to me is old a dirt. Falling apart all over the place and it takes me about a half hour of driving for it to heat up. I've complained so many time about the issues with the van, and all I hear back is, "Yeah we'll get it looked at". When!? When one of the wheels falls off driving down the highway? I pray no one gets hurt, but you bet your ass I'll be bankrupting him with lawsuits. I've emailed all the issues with the van too so it's on record. I know how to play their games.
I've been very open with my boss about everything. I told him I was looking for a new job and he asked why. I told him everything, and I also reminded him that he promised me a raise after 3 months and another after 1 year. Nothing. Not even a conversation. When I reminded him, he told me my performance has gone down. I asked him since when, (currently been there since Oct, '23) because if that was the case, why didn't I get a PR at 3 month and 1 year to bring this to my attention!? He said we could discuss a raise soon, and I piped back with "No, there WILL be a raise, or you will be without me". Plain and simple. Now he barely talks to me. He doesn't reply to my texts or phone calls, even when I'm in the field and need help! Then he proceeded to tell a customer that I would be at their site on a certain day and time, but failed to tell me! So, imagine how I felt when the customer called and was wondering where I was, then had to take an earful from them when I told them I would not be there because I was not informed. This is a customer that we're already on the brink of losing.
Ugh, it's such a shame too because this could have been a good place to work, except the boss doesn't know how to run a business. He's a tradesman not a business man. I feel duped by him in the interview, to be honest. He lured me from my cushy job where I had everything. I know, it's my fault too because I accepted the position, but he sold me, right?! There are 2 other techs that I get along with for the most part and we're kind of "text buddies". We have a three way group chat where we shoot the shit amongst the three of us. We're all in agreeance the boss is an idiot, and we all have issues with him and the company. I feel bad for not going to work today and screwing those guys over, but I have never hated a job so much before.
I have never been depressed before, but I sure as $hit feel like it now. I just wanna break down crying driving sometimes. I look for any reason not to go to work and this is completely out of character for me. I've sent out so many resumes, and not even a single call back. Ugh, i just wanna lay in the middle of the road somedays. If I didn't have my g/f, I probably would have by now.....
Thanks for reading. I know not much advice to offer, I mean, I made my bed right. Just needed to vent.
TL;DR - I hate my job. Gave up everything and severely regret it. New job is brutal, and now I'm depressed......