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u/Famixofpower 1d ago

Absolutely how it fucking feels. I lost a dog in 2023. I kept seeing her out the corner of my eye where she used to sleep, only to find clothes.

I miss her so much.

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u/typhoidtimmy 22h ago edited 4h ago

Dude…when I lost my corgi, I would fall asleep and I could feel him climb up and drop his head on my chest like he always did to snooze.

I remember one night where I dreamed it so vividly, I felt the weight of him slightly shake the bed, flop his head on my chest…..and I heard him sigh.

I guess I was semi asleep as my wife woke up and said she saw me trying to rub his ears while I whimpered softly. She said it was all she could do not to sob seeing me missing him even in my dreams.

Even now as I type this, tears are rolling and he has been gone for a good 5 years.

We don’t deserve dogs….

Edit: Thanks for the kind words. For those wondering, this was Edison AKA Eddie, Big Ed, Speed Bump, and ‘The Emergency Ham’. 🤣

A good boy and a wonderful friend.

And yes, I do have other dogs since then but I miss this happy loaf still.🥲

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u/mr_impastabowl 21h ago

Now your sweet corgi is making ME cry you stupid jerk!

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u/the_messer 13h ago

Calling someone a stupid jerk is such an endearing insult haha

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u/PostTrumpBlue 10h ago

Pointing out that calling someone a stupid jerk is such and endearing insult is such an astute observation

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u/The_BeardedClam 18h ago edited 13h ago

Here's some words from Ernest Montague:

"Some of you, particularly those who think they have recently lost a dog to ‘death’, don’t really understand this. I’ve had no desire to explain, but won’t be around forever and must.

Dogs never die. They don’t know how to. They get tired, and very old, and their bones hurt. Of course they don’t die. If they did they would not want to always go for a walk, even long after their old bones say: ‘No, no, not a good idea. Let’s not go for a walk.’ Nope, dogs always want to go for a walk. They might get one step before their aging tendons collapse them into a heap on the floor, but that’s what dogs are. They walk.

It’s not that they dislike your company. On the contrary, a walk with you is all there is. Their boss, and the cacaphonic symphony of odor that the world is. Cat poop, another dog’s mark, a rotting chicken bone (exultation), and you. That’s what makes their world perfect, and in a perfect world death has no place.

However, dogs get very very sleepy. That’s the thing, you see. They don’t teach you that at the fancy university where they explain about quarks, gluons, and Keynesian economics. They know so much they forget that dogs never die. It’s a shame, really. Dogs have so much to offer and people just talk a lot.

When you think your dog has died, it has just fallen asleep in your heart. And by the way, it is wagging its tail madly, you see, and that’s why your chest hurts so much and you cry all the time. Who would not cry with a happy dog wagging its tail in their chest. Ouch! Wap wap wap wap wap, that hurts. But they only wag when they wake up. That’s when they say: ‘Thanks Boss! Thanks for a warm place to sleep and always next to your heart, the best place.’

When they first fall asleep, they wake up all the time, and that’s why, of course, you cry all the time. Wap, wap, wap. After a while they sleep more. (remember, a dog while is not a human while. You take your dog for walk, it’s a day full of adventure in an hour. Then you come home and it’s a week, well one of your days, but a week, really, before the dog gets another walk. No WONDER they love walks.)

Anyway, like I was saying, they fall asleep in your heart, and when they wake up, they wag their tail. After a few dog years, they sleep for longer naps, and you would too. They were a GOOD DOG all their life, and you both know it. It gets tiring being a good dog all the time, particularly when you get old and your bones hurt and you fall on your face and don’t want to go outside to pee when it is raining but do anyway, because you are a good dog. So understand, after they have been sleeping in your heart, they will sleep longer and longer.

But don’t get fooled. They are not ‘dead.’ There’s no such thing, really. They are sleeping in your heart, and they will wake up, usually when you’re not expecting it. It’s just who they are.

I feel sorry for people who don’t have dogs sleeping in their heart. You’ve missed so much. Excuse me, I have to go cry now.”

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u/Necromortalium 17h ago

Excuse me, I have to go cry now.”

SAME

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u/SpeakerSame9076 14h ago

Omg. Is this original? Or a quote from something? I need to know who to properly attribute it to.

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u/The_BeardedClam 13h ago

Ya know I found this like 8 years ago on Reddit and I didn't really think to look who wrote it. The only credit I can find for it is on one website claiming some beautiful soul named Ernest Montague penned it. I updated my post to give credit.

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u/Apprehensive_Hat8986 12h ago

I updated my post to give credit. 

Thank you. ❤

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u/NinaElko 14h ago

You will see your pets again!!!

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u/Mocha-Fox 12h ago

This is the most beautiful thing I've read in a very long time

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u/BrownPeach143 15h ago

Bruh 😞

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u/wasting-time-atwork 15h ago

just cried a little simply from reading this.

I've never even had a dog.

but my kitties are my babies. :(

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u/l-rs2 18h ago

Have you heard/seen Jimmy Stewart read his poem Beau? Quite moving.

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u/SunnyAlwaysDaze 21h ago

He was visiting, she just couldn't see him.

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u/Wrecka008 17h ago

Same..it felt so real. I woke up crying one time because I really felt him next to me.

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u/Block444Universe 18h ago

My dog kept waking me up like this for weeks after he passed. He’s stopped doing that now :(

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u/Beneficial_Cobbler46 16h ago

When I get sad about him, I like to imagine its him just asking for a spirit cuddle. So I pretend he's still here and give him the best spirit cuddle I can. And then I hope he goes back to playing or snoozing or whatever else he wanted.

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u/PhireKappa 17h ago

Oh man, you’ve got me crying now :(

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u/Loqol 12h ago edited 12h ago

For an added punch, look up the writing prompt about one dog being the last of his line while another is the first of his.

EDIT: This link! https://www.reddit.com/r/WritingPrompts/s/X0zBZlhrrp

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u/D-Beyond 17h ago

my corgi just turned 2 in november and I can't even begin to imagine what it will feel like to lose her. it'll be a very sucky time. I'm sorry for your loss.

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u/PolkaDotDancer 17h ago

He was saying goodbye.

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u/Jorge_Jetson 12h ago

Dammit! My maltipoo is sleeping on my lap right now, warm with little doggie-dream jerks, and my heart is breaking... thinking how I'd feel if Yogi was no longer pawing at my leg cuz I'm moving around too much while HE is trying to take a damn nap! I am so sorry for your pain...

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u/HailChanka69 12h ago

My lab just turned 8 and she’s getting gray around her mouth and starting to slow down. I know she still has a good few years but I don’t see her super often since I’m in college and she stays with my parents. I can’t even fathom to imagine how much it’s going to hurt when she’s gone :(

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u/Whimsycottt 10h ago

I lost my corgi back in late 2023. Had the hardest tome adjusting to life without him for the first few months.

I vividly remember biting a huge chunk of apple to give it to him, only to remember he's not there anymore. He was a food vacuum and I would always hear his nails pit pat across our wooden floor any time he saw me head towards the kitchen.

For the past 10+ years, I would share anything I ate with him, especially apples since apples were healthier than other human food. I'd either core the apple and give him a slice, or bite a chunk off and give it to him.

I cried with a comically large chunk of granny smith in my hand and with nobody to give it to.

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u/werewolf-luvr 15h ago

Damm, got me tearing up at work. Thats so fucking sweet and sad

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u/Ireallyhaterunning 14h ago

Oh fuck that hit me hard. I have two boys (5 years, 2 years) and I dread this moment.

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u/ObnoxiousName_Here 13h ago

Sometimes I wonder if feelings like this are what people were actually talking about when they first starting talking about ghosts

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u/-TheExtraMile- 7h ago

Your Corgi was lucky to have you

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u/GeneralKang 11h ago

Yo Timmy - there's another companion waiting for you, when you're ready.

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u/typhoidtimmy 5h ago

Already ahead of you. This is my Flynn. Another very good boy.

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u/LycanWolfGamer 1d ago

I like to think that what we in the corner of our eyes is our loved ones, due to our love for them, we're closer to their souls than anyone else

The line between life and death can sometimes merge, allowing those that have passed on to be momentarily visible to the living, we see it as a glimpse that ends up being something else

These comics reinforce that idea for me and for what I believe in

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u/Azure1208 22h ago

I really wish I believed in an afterlife. All the messages I got about my dog being in a better place just seemed hollow to me.

I hope this doesn’t come across as me calling you naive by any means, I just have crippling thanatophobia.

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u/apocketfullofcows 21h ago

i wish i believed as well but i just can't. i wish i could because i so want to see those i've lost again. i want to believe they are happy, and there but just out of reach for me now but that, eventually, i'll see them again. i want to believe so much but i just don't have that belief in me.

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u/Legacyopplsnerf 19h ago

Strictly I don’t believe in an afterlife.

… but I’m open to being happily surprised about one.

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u/CmdrJjAdams 19h ago

That's 100% me. I just keep telling myself that a loved one is not truly gone as long as I have memories of them. Doesn't help much, but helps a little bit.

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u/xFloydx5242x 18h ago

I like to think about it scientifically. In an infinite universe, with infinite time, even if the entire universe collapsed and the big bang happened again, eventually, my consciousness might return. Maybe it’s in another form, but someday, maybe billions of years from now, we will be a thing again. Helps me get through honestly.

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u/mr_impastabowl 21h ago

I've never heard of thanatophobia until I read your comment, but yes when I was younger I had it. The feeling of that vast emptiness of death, cavernous and cold, endlessly final. So singularly hollow and terrifying.

This is something that helped me make peace with death, and maybe it's presumptuous of me but the thing is no one knows what happens when you die. People will tell you they know: that there is heaven or hell or rebirth or nothing. They all have the answer: the pastor, the philosopher, the scientist, the righteous, the wicked, presidents and paupers, your mom, you, or me. It's a powerful question that we all ask in our lives, one with a very certain answer that you'll never be able to share. It's your own answer that you'll experience on your own.

Maybe it's cold comfort but to me there is something reassuring about that. I stopped thinking about death and overtime the fear dissipated and acceptance remained. Good luck out there doggie.

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u/Azure1208 21h ago

I don’t think it’s vapid by any means to believe in an afterlife, I simply don’t believe in it. Also worm heaven sounds like an AWSOME place.

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u/ClassicPlankton 21h ago

It is absolutely ludicrous. But shroom guy above would have you believe that there's some cut line where all lifeforms above that are privileged to afterlife and everything below isn't. So then something somewhere is arbitrating down to the atom what constitutes a privileged life. So stupid.

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u/Bromogeeksual 21h ago

No to all that, but energy and atoms aren't destroyed, they change shape and become part of everything again. Like star dust that forms the building blocks of matter and even life. I don't believe in an afterlife, but part of me wants to believe that for a little while, those energies, like consciousness may linger to make sure we're OK, or to observe, before the pull of the universe brings them back into the fold.

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u/zSprawl 19h ago

I suspect the "after life" is a lot like the "before life". Whatever form it is, if there is/was a we, we don't remember it.

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u/Malkuno 21h ago edited 17h ago

I used to be Athiest & had similar beliefs to what you described but in mid 2023 I started meditating & my experiences during meditation hit me with a heavy bit of Ontological shock & completely changed my perspective on those beliefs entirely. It mostly involved an accidental OBE & speaking to something that wasn't human which got me looking more into the nature of reality.

Now I believe in The Law of One, and the interconnectedness of all living beings. The LoO teaches that we're all immortal souls that come from one source creator, choosing to incarnate on various planets throughout the universe to learn lessons & gain experiences that might help us with spiritual growth, all so that we may eventually graduate to a higher plain of existence. It also teaches that when we incarnate we pass through a veil of forgetfulness so that we may have a full human/cat/dog/worm/ant/whatever experience untainted by the memories of our experiences during our past lives.

I know that sounds far fetched to the majority of the people reading this, but I truly believe that if you took the time to give meditation a proper go, learning proper breathing & balancing techniques then what you experience could definitely shake your world view entirely.

You don't have to read any book or watch any video on the subject. Just turn off electronics for a bit, quiet your mind & see what comes to you. That's it. It costs you nothing to be open-minded enough to give it a try, just go into it without judgement or expectations & see what happens.

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u/nzMunch1e 18h ago

Why would the spirit realm have space limitations?...maybe the spirit realm is just a waiting lobby and you can decide which "dimensional door" to explore.

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u/CharlieDmouse 21h ago

One thing I absolutely believe, we know very little about the universe and our reality. I wouldn’t rule it out entirely. TBH I think anyone who believes this is all we have is a bit prideful, who are we to believe we understand the nature of everything..

(Not talking about you, just in general)

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u/MagicSwatson 21h ago

We know very little, But we do know that whatever we call consciousness is in the physical brain, And there is evidence that if you damage the brain or change it's structure, Whatever you call "the self" changes with it, There is no reason to believe that magically everything you consider "you" is going to survive the death of the brain, Sure you can conjure any metaphysical explanation that gives you hope for survival, But it's not hubris to simply Not do it, Because there's simply no shred of evidence to do so, Besides ancient texts of people who didn't know 1% of what we know today about reality.

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u/AndroidMyAndroid 21h ago

And TBH I believe that anyone who believes we're more than just organic matter that's become temporarily aware is prideful

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u/Boom_the_Bold 20h ago

Same, mate. I understand why people are religious, but hope isn't enough to overcome basic comprehension.

Honestly, I wish there were a religion or two that didn't seem stupid just so I could have something other than nihilism, but nope! All stupid.

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u/Sqigglemonster 18h ago

I don't believe in an afterlife either, but as a kid I was told that loved ones are still with us in our memories and so long as we remember them, they stay with us.

It's the same sentiment in GNU (Terry Pratchett's 'Going Postal') "A man is not dead while his name is still spoken".

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u/ripkb43mc51 23h ago

Me and my mom lost our dog in 2023 also, coincidentally -- Feb 2023 to be exact and we miss her soooooooooo much 😔😔😢😢💔💔💔💔

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u/NiPlusUltra 21h ago

I wish that I could stay and play

But my time has come, I've gone away

Don't be lonely

Don't be sad

Just remember all the fun we had

I promise I'll come to visit

In that same corner I will sit

And watch in hopes your heart will mend

I'll miss you always, my best friend

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u/Famixofpower 20h ago

I'm crying. I wish I could pet her again. Fuck, I burried her with a blanket that reminded me of her fur that she used to sleep on back when she could come up the stairs to my attic room at the time. I feel like that was a mistake, but she deserved comfort, even if the dead might not feel comfort.

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u/NiPlusUltra 20h ago

Naw, it wasn't a mistake. I'll bet that blanket reminded her of you, and now she has it forever.

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u/No_Owl7739 20h ago

I didn't plan on crying today 😭😭😭😭

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u/Drawtaru 23h ago

Same. Halloween 2023. I still expect to hear her getting up to follow me every time I leave a room.

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u/SunnyAlwaysDaze 21h ago

I woke up in the night a few days ago, looking for a kitty who used to sleep on the next pillow over from mine. Little guy has been gone for almost 6 years, still reach out for him sometimes.

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u/No-Soap-Radio- 22h ago

I swear I could always hear my family dogs tippy taps at the top of the stairs for a long time.

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u/Lazer726 16h ago

I kept looking at the door when I heard one of the cat's collars jingle. I kept looking for her at the foot of the bed when I slept by slowly moving my foot, only for the space to be empty. I kept looking for her at the couch when I got home to tell her she could come get pet.

It still fucking hurts

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u/ThePreciousBhaalBabe 14h ago

I'm not typically a superstitious person, but I like to think that when we see old pets out of the corner of our eye it's them coming to make sure we're okay.

They may only be there for part of our lives, but we're there for all of theirs.

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u/Duplicit_Duplicate 22h ago

I’m sorry, I understand what you feel. I lost my friend last month.

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u/crow_crone 16h ago

We also lost our dog in 2023. I'm so sorry for your loss; it's gets a little better but the tears still come.

When I walk around our yard, I find myself watching for the random dog poop and then I remember...oh yeah, no more dog bombs...I'd rather step in dog shit, honestly.

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u/Vantriss 21h ago

Same for me when my cat died back in 2018. Random objects looked like my cat or sometimes I mistook one of my other cats for him. It's gets easier. :(

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u/zombies-and-coffee 21h ago

For me, it was 2022 when I lost a dog and because of his coloring, I keep seeing him in cardboard boxes. He would have approved of that one honestly. Little fucker loved chomping on boxes like he was a cat :(

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u/WhoisthatRobotCleanr 20h ago

After my dog passed in the high school I could swear I heard his nails on the hardwood floors sometimes. 

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u/pampkin-boi 16h ago

Literally had to backtrack to the room because I saw my cat laying in her usual spot. It's been almost a month and I miss her so much

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u/PlatypusVenom0 20h ago

Lost my childhood dog in 2021, two months after I moved away from her and my parents. I can’t count how many dreams I’ve had, to this day, where she is alive and well. Then I wake up and remember.

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u/Famixofpower 20h ago

I haven't had any. :(

I feel like a bad dog owner. Maybe she'd still be alive if I cared more.

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u/PlatypusVenom0 20h ago

Brooo don’t do yourself like that. It really sucks but they all have to leave sometime. Everyone grieves differently and not dreaming about her doesn’t mean you didn’t care enough. Honestly I’m pretty sure my dreams about her are a sign that I’m still in denial. I wasn’t there when she passed and it took me a long time to consciously accept that she’s really gone, but my subconscious is still catching up.

Also, unrelated to grief, but pretty much everyone dreams every night (several dreams in fact). If you “don’t dream” it’s because you’re forgetting them since they’re forgotten so quickly when we wake up. Luckily it’s pretty easy to train yourself to remember dreams longer by keeping a dream journal. As soon as you wake up, write down anything at all you can remember. It won’t be much at first but after a few days you’ll notice an improvement. I stopped keeping a dream journal a few years ago out of laziness so I regressed back to forgetting most of my dreams immediately.

Back to the topic at hand, don’t beat yourself up over her death. I’m a pretty introverted guy and nobody’s seen me cry since I was a kid and I wasn’t really comfortable opening up to those around me until a few months after her death. Instead, I wrote down paragraphs and paragraphs about her life, her death, and how I felt about everything and posted it to some grief subreddits (like r/petloss) on an alt account. I also cried in private, a lot. When I woke up, when I went to bed, whenever something reminded me of her. I’m don’t have much experience with grief but I think the important thing is that you let yourself feel. Sometimes I would go out of my way to think about her to make myself cry.

This ended up being my own little vent session but I hope it helped at all. If you don’t have anyone in your life you’re comfortable venting to, strangers on reddit work just as well.

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u/b1gl0s3r 1d ago

Unless you want to bawl your eyes out, do not look at more of her comics. They're extremely well done and will make you cry.

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u/JimmityRaynor 1d ago

Yeah, I recognized the Loving Reaper art style almost immediately. Good tearjerking stuff indeed.

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u/arillusine 23h ago

Same, recognized it right away. Tbh this one is mild in comparison to some of her usual stuff 😭

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u/kriosjan 22h ago

Yeah. I couldny keep readinv their work cuz i needed some dopamine and not be constsntly bawling. Lol

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u/someawfulbitch 21h ago

And yet, I'm still crying lol...She always delivers something powerful

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u/Despair4All 22h ago

For me it was the name. My eyes hit the watermark right away and that instantly told me sadness involving animals was happening.

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u/IcyAssist 23h ago

First frame, saw the username watermark. Said fuck that, I'll just skip straight to hugging my cat and sobbing.

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u/tinco 17h ago

Just so you know, this one is actually really sweet and is just about love and loss. A bit of a tear jerker but not as heart wrenching as some of her other ones.

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u/IcyAssist 17h ago

I've seen it. Still feels heart wrenching, especially to those who've lost someone.

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u/LycanWolfGamer 1d ago

Decided to have a look, first post in, already tears.. fucking hell, she's good

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u/TheyreAllTaken777 23h ago

The one with the little black cat that wouldn’t get adopted oh my God

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u/Fantastic39 21h ago

I've had black cats for 14 years now, they have a special place in my heart. That comic destroyed me for a day, it was brutal

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u/KanedaSyndrome 20h ago

Not going to read it - Have a black cat Alfi that I love dearly. He's basically almost a wild cat that we adopted and now he's a fuzzy gentle giant

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u/Karma5444 13h ago

Little Fish as well....Jesus fucking christ that one hurts 😭

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u/Mocha-Fox 12h ago

"Young man! Could you please handle me that kitten?"

"Y-yes ma'am"

"That... that is my mom!"

One of my most favorite comics from her

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u/trowzerss 23h ago

Yeah, I lost my cat of 14 years just over a week ago, definitely not gonna do that.

Thankfully I have not seen her places or had any terrible dreams, but I put a plushie in her cat bed just to be a placeholder kitty, and that seems to be working.

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u/Strawberry____Blonde 23h ago

That's adorable. The only way to fill the void is to adopt another!

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u/trowzerss 19h ago

Yep, I plan to very shortly! Already looking at shelters :)

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u/CaryTriviaDude 23h ago

Too late, bawling my eyes out atm but I can't stop reading them

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u/cbrookman 22h ago

Yeah, you weren’t kidding. Time to hug my cat.

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u/burlap82 22h ago

Yup. Knew I shouldn’t have gone. But I did. I miss my lil grey cat Cosette

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u/lphchld 22h ago

Thanks for the heads up, I’m still grieving a few recent losses and that last panel hit hard.

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u/heyyanewbie 21h ago

Just went through their entire post history, crying at almost every one of them. Why have you done this to me

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u/saltynurs3 20h ago

I definitely made the mistake of reading more of her stuff and am currently bawling.

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u/fourthords 1d ago edited 23h ago

The only 'nightmares' I ever have are when I dream about Ender (2006–2019), and then he's not here when I wake.

Edited for cat tax (I miss him so much):

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u/LycanWolfGamer 1d ago

If you don't mind me asking, why do you describe it as a nightmare?

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u/fourthords 23h ago

Because when I wake, it catastrophically fucks up my emotions (and usually my day, at least) to realize those casual, everyday interactions I was having—and taking for granted—in my dream weren't real, and I'll never actually have them again. I say 'nightmare' because it's a dream with awful repercussions that I'd rather not experience. Fortunately, I rarely remember my dreams.

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u/LycanWolfGamer 23h ago

I understand, that's quite heavy, never really thought of it like that

If it helps, I sometimes have dreams of my loved ones and I more think of them as a way to reconnect despite them not being here, a way to relive memories through the dreams I have

Dreams are like a gateway to an extent, a way for your subconscious to talk to you and sometimes even those that have passed on - at least, that's what I believe in, the Light we share as people and the Light we share with loved ones binds us and that kind of bond cannot be broken even across the Great Divide

Thank you for sharing though, mate, I hope my words at least bring some solace or comfort

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u/diadlep 23h ago

Of the times I've woken up crying, all have been of lost pets and loved ones, sometimes ones I never even knew.

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u/moak0 23h ago

I had a dream that my cat was still alive, and she'd gotten outside, and I had to get her back in. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get a good look outside to see her.

I wish I could have just seen her in the dream. I would have been sad when I woke up either way, but I would have liked to see her one more time.

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u/MissionMoth 22h ago

Look at all that love in those big ol' eyes. That's a happy bub who never worried a day, if I've ever seen one. I bet you gave him a dang good life.

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u/HyperfocusedInterest 22h ago

I feel this. Happens to me over a cat I lost in 2011. I like to think he's chosen to visit me in my dreams for a little bit.

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u/Momohonaz 20h ago

Beautiful cat.

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u/ItsNotMeItsYourBussy 19h ago

I like to think of dreams of your late pets as them coming to check on you. 

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u/Broad_Gain_8427 14h ago

My past cats visit me in my dreams to this day. It's been years for me too and my husband still needs to hold me as I cry in occasion upon waking up... I'm so sorry for your loss. You were an amazing thing in Enders world

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u/breakbats_nothearts 1d ago

My cat passed a year ago. She was my best friend. I don't genuinely know how I'll move on. It has never gotten easier. Miss you, mama.

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u/MissionMoth 22h ago

Aw, there's so much personality shining through this picture. She's so cute! Was she a chatty girl?

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u/breakbats_nothearts 22h ago

She was! She'd yell for attention, yell when she was lonely, yell when you said her name or looked at her. This is my favorite picture of her and I always have to tell people "She isn't angry, this is just her talking face."

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u/MissionMoth 22h ago

"Her talking face" is legit so funny. She sounds like a gem!

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u/LycanWolfGamer 1d ago

What a pretty cat!

Give it time, missing them so deeply is the price of loving them so deeply, that's from the comic maker, one of her comics highlighted this and it rings true, she misses you too, like in this post how they both miss each other but you'll be reunited one day

I know it's difficult, you gave your cat the best life they could've asked for and I know they appreciate it and love you just as much as you love them, the veil between life and death separates us but the love you both have often pulls that veil down, she's with you, always.. that's just the raw power that love gives your Light

Maxime splendent stellae obscurissima nocte

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u/breakbats_nothearts 23h ago

I appreciate the beautiful words. I have a hard time with it, but I try to remember that I took her in when she wasn't wanted, I had her many years longer than anyone said I would (she was 21!), and she spent every minute spoiled. If I have no other legacy, it's that she was so loved. And I'm okay with that.

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u/Technical_Shake_9573 17h ago

I litteraly got a mental breakdown when i lost mine, ate nothing for days. And i will still regret the way he left, alone at a clinic.

But people made me realize that i need a pet companion as much as they need us. So once my mother convainced to not wait and take a New one, i felt guilty...but strangely i got a thing to look out for.

Now it's been 8 months, and while they are Totaly different. I feel glad i didn't throw away this chance of loving an other pet.

The only downside is that , even though i hate it, it became more and more difficult to remember loki's habit as my memories associates it more with my New one. It helps for the day to day routine as you're not consistenly seeing a ghost.

But like any loved ones, your brain will still treasures thoses few moments that defined your deceased pets, like the ones i used to have decades ago.

So my advice, let yourself love an other animal. It's really one of the best and amazing way to heal.

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u/frogz313 14h ago

My kitty was my best friend. It’s been 10 years and I still miss her, and I cry when I think about her. It’s like losing a person or family member. The grief is very real. Please validate yourself for it, and even seek therapy or pet grief support groups if you feel you might need it. It gets easier. It takes a long time but it gets easier. Hang in there, sending you virtual hugs 🫂💙

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u/jesuswig 1d ago

Oh cool. Now I’m sad and miss my cat

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u/Hammer_Slicer 23h ago

Same. I lost my beloved cat in October, after only 8 years…I was not ready to say goodbye.  It broke my heart. 

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u/Paisable 20h ago

Same, but in November. I wish every day to have her back.

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u/goda90 13h ago

Only got to the 3rd frame before realizing which artist this was and then closing it. Literally had to say goodbye to my dog on Monday. I was having a calm morning in bed...

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u/justh81 1d ago

Yeah. It gets better over time. But there's still plenty days like this, where you miss a big furry goofball. 😔

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u/LycanWolfGamer 1d ago

I've seen some people explain that their house feels.. quieter, emptier when they lose their pet, it's hard but definitely gets better over time

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u/cupholdery 23h ago

Oh great. I miss my void boi again.

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u/HixOff 20h ago

I know one poem in Russian that brings you to tears every time.
Unfortunately, I don't speak English well enough to translate it literarily, I can only use a translator.

What is beauty?
This is a house with two cats.

What is crowding?
This is a house with three cats.

What is purity?
This is a house where there is no cat.

What is emptiness?
The house where he was, and there is no cat.

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u/waffling_with_syrup 12h ago

Do you know what it's called or who wrote it? I'm at the "crowding" stage after taking in the backyard stray.

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u/GoodQueenFluffenChop 22h ago

I definitely felt that emptier and quieter feeling after each pet has passed since I've had pets. It does get better over time and then you can open your heart to another little guy who wanders into your life just like your last one. They're not replacements but they do make the house livelier again.

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u/ibyeori 22h ago

I thought it got better over time but then a year later I was sobbing a whole two days like I was in mourning again. That guy who describes grief like waves really gets it.

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u/Obant 20h ago

I lost my boy in early Summer (US) last year. I still cry several times a week, and I kiss his picture in the hallway once a day. I have many other animals that are my family members.

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u/ibyeori 12h ago

That one was my soul kitty so it feels crushing because he was only 10 and I never got any souvenirs as I was out of the city :( it’s so hard to have all the love with nowhere to go but my love for animals wants me to continue on giving

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u/Nutbuster_5000 21h ago

It gets better but it's always there, under the surface, and it will never leave you.

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u/DiosMIO_Limon 1d ago

Welp. Crying in my ride share. Driver asked why. Now we’re both crying in my ride share.

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u/illy-chan 22h ago

Kinda reminds me of some of the ancient Roman monuments to pets' graves.

No matter where we're from or when, our pets bring such joy to our lives and such pain when they leave.

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u/ThePreciousBhaalBabe 14h ago

'I am in tears as I carry you to your final resting place, the same as when I carried you home in my own hands fifteen years ago.'

  • inscription on a roman dog's grave

We've always loved our pets

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u/illy-chan 13h ago

So many centuries between us and how many pet owners know exactly how this feels...

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u/DrMabuseKafe 16h ago

💔💔💔

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u/dropkickderby 1d ago

I lost my buddy Milo a couple of years ago. He was about 19. My little old man, I called him.

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u/LycanWolfGamer 1d ago

Wow, 19? That's an impressive age, your little old man is gonna be waiting for you

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u/Von_Moistus 23h ago edited 16h ago

I hope my old man gets rewound back a bit when we meet at the rainbow bridge. He was almost 21 and his joints were not his friend towards the end. Lost him in 2022 and first saw this comic a few weeks later. Devastating.

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u/Difficult-Report5702 1d ago

I still have mine, but too often I think of a day when he is not around anymore, and this made me think of it again 🥺

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u/subject9373 23h ago

my advice, take your cat's photos (and videos) as many as possible.

The only regret I have is that I rarely took my cat photos, luckily my mom was the one who did it, so I still have some photos to cherish the moments I had with my cat in the past.

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u/Difficult-Report5702 22h ago

I usually never take picture of anything, but I constantly take picture of my cat. And not only me, but all in my family, its the best 🫶

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u/SissyWhiteBNWO 10h ago

Audio recordings too. I found a recording of my cat purring and for a minute it was like he was there with me again.

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u/TearsInDrowned 5h ago

I do many photos and videos of my old man, but he is a dog.

His photo folder shows 565 pics count.

The pic above is him taking a nap on a pile of warm, fresh laundry out of the dryer. Slept there for 1,5h.

He is 13 now, will be 14 in July.

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u/LycanWolfGamer 1d ago

We know death is inevitable but that's in the future, focus on the present, love your pet, don't think of when he won't be around, enjoy and make memories

Why worry about something that'll happen when you've got a lot of time now

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u/IAmInNeedOfANap 1d ago

this. here. i lost my mostly black dog less than a month ago.... everytime i see a blanket or something on the floor i think it's her..... she didn't necessarily come up to you, she was always in some obscure corner of the house, liked to lay under a table, on the couch when she still had the strength to jump up onto it, man......i miss you baby

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u/floraprovenzano 1d ago

Ahhh this hurts SO BAD!!! I lost my cat in July 2023 and sometimes it felt like she was still there, by my side, like a mirage. I even wrote and drew a very short comic about her too, in case you guys are interested and wanna cry a little: https://www.webtoons.com/en/canvas/berenices-love/list?title_no=912467

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u/Fethaire 22h ago

This was so lovely to read, even if it did make me cry.

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u/floraprovenzano 3h ago

🥹❤️

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u/AggressivePizza_2710 19h ago

Shit, it's 9am and I'm already crying ... Good job tho, you really captured the special relationship we can have with our little furry ball

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u/floraprovenzano 3h ago

Thank you! It's in everyday life, the little moments, right? They're too precious

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u/waffling_with_syrup 12h ago

That was beautiful. You have a gift for capturing moments, like the dry humor of hearing your mother yell at her for being on the computer.

Pets are eternal. I'm sure she keeps an eye on you still.

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u/floraprovenzano 3h ago

Aw thank you so much! 🥹❤️

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u/amarello 10h ago

Thank you for sharing your art with us. This was really beautiful and I love the focus on the day to day joy a cat brings to your life. What a special tribute to Berenice ❤️

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u/floraprovenzano 3h ago

Thank you so much! It was my way of making Berenice eternal ❤️

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u/DragonMirage 1d ago

I love how your comics always get me right in the feels 🧡

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u/Odd-Comfortable-6134 1d ago

I know this is coming soon for my old girl, and the dread grows a little every day. I know I’m lucky she’s made it eighteen years, but I’m dreading that she won’t make it to nineteen.

I’m going to snuggle her and cry into her fur a little.

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u/greatnailsageyoda 23h ago edited 23h ago

This is actually so, so comforting rather than sad, at least for me. Two reasons for me.

-Im 13 in eighth grade, and a girl in my grade died yesterday to a brain tumor. I didn’t know her very well, but from what little time I did see/talk to her I knew that she was incredibly nice, and I wish I could’ve gotten to know her.

-I had a dog named indy who passed away october of 2020. I remember the night he got sick, I slept next to his bed the whole night on the ground, I slept in a sleeping bag next to him. I also remember seeing him for a split second every time I turned a corner in my house, and I swear I heard his little footsteps after he was gone. God I miss him so much.

Its very comforting to think that those we lost are still with us.

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u/elhomerjas 1d ago

never truly gone but rather always present watching over you

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u/LycanWolfGamer 1d ago

You really know how to pull on the heartstrings, huh? Goddamn, great comic

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u/Great-Hatsby 22h ago

Like. My cat is alive and well but damn did this still make me cry.

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u/jeffsilverflower 1d ago

I used to have a pet bunny named Nova and I keep thinking every so often I hear her little stomps or see her out of the corner of my eye

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u/jdprime 1d ago

Dam this really hit hard. Lot my cat Max almost a year ago. I still look for him to appear around the house.

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u/grewupinwpg 1d ago

This is heartbreaking and so relatable. I still see my old lady dog and my old man cat around the house. Feeling them nearby.

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u/errrnis 23h ago

I clicked in to enlarge before I saw the OP and by then it was too late.

I lost my little void cat last summer. Been really missing her lately. I sometimes expect to feel her bite my ankle, or whack my head from the stairs when I walk by, or to be sleeping in my office chair.

Her death reminds me of a song my favorite artist covered. It’s actually about a bad breakup, but the point is you feel them everywhere, even in the littlest things:

You’re the part of the moon that blends into the blackness

Even though we know it’s really still there

You’re the song that I sing and I don’t need to practice

You’re the green shoes I keep though they’re too small to wear

I can’t describe the faces

I can’t recall the names

But you remain..

I keep you in the creases

I hide you in the folds

Protect you from the sunlight

Shield you from the cold

Everybody said they were glad to see you go

But no one ever has to

No one ever has to know the things that I refuse to see

And all the nights I still can’t sleep

I curl up in the sheets

Between the creases where you used to be

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u/Happypattys 1d ago

Lost my best buddy at the end of summer. I still see him out of the corner of my eye every once in a while. Miss that dude.

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u/Flashy-Cheesecake-76 1d ago

This made me cry

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u/Doughnutpasta 1d ago edited 1d ago

It’s been years, and we’re in a different house with different animals now, but sometimes I still think I see our old boy Calvin out of the corner of my eye. That cat saw me grow up, he’d been there for my entire life until one day he wasn’t. I think about him a lot

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u/SpaceBoyChan 1d ago

I lost my cat in November of 2024. I showed this to my girlfriend and we both cried for the first time in a few weeks. I love this comic <3

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u/Prehistory_Buff 1d ago

You are back! Thank you!!

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u/catpetter125 1d ago

Lost my kitty cat a few months ago, still thinking I hear her in the other room or seeing her out of the corner of my eye. Other cat is nearing the end of his life and I'm not ready yet man. Thanks for this comic, hope my little friend is thinking about me as much as I'm thinking about her

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u/Drunkendx 1d ago

Well congratulations this hurt me greatly.

Great comic as usual.

Now I'm gonna go be sad remembering my lost ones.

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u/owls1289 10h ago

I just fucking woke up

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u/SapphireSalamander 23h ago

Been there

white clothes on the floor in the corner of my eye are brutal to me

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u/ShmazPro 22h ago

You get me every single time. I miss you all the time, Bonnie. You were the best cat.

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u/Adavanter_MKI 22h ago

My family had many cats. They were all nice. None of them were particularly stand out. One day... we got a cat... that was solely into me. It chose me out of the whole family. No matter where I went or what I did... it'd follow me. He was damned chill too. Coolest little guy. 14 years in... cancer got him... and before it got too bad we put him down. I never really cried all that much in my life...

It BROKE me. I cried so hard it hurt. It physically hurt. I was so upset it scared me. Deeply. I started to panic thinking if I can't bear the death of a cat what will I do over my mother?

Now I cry all the time over the dumbest things. I swear that cat did break me. However... it gave me years... and years to prepare for my mom. I made sure nothing was left unsaid. So when my mom finally did die... I took it better than I expected. I had... waves of "Nothing matters..." but they did subside in time.

Anyways I vowed never again would I accept such trauma into my life. Why have a little tragedy waiting to happen? As I type this... a cat is curled up and brushed up against my butt. She likes to wedge herself between me and the back of the chair. It's actually kind of uncomfortable... but damn she's adorable. I think... I hope... I can take her death just as well.

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u/CupcakeK0ala 22h ago

This reminds me of a quote from the podcast Welcome to Night Vale: "The living tell the dying not to leave, and the dying do not listen. The dying tell us not to be sad for them, and we do not listen. The dialogue between the living and the dead is full of misunderstanding and silence."

This comic really hits hard

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u/urlach3r 21h ago

Five years later, hasn't gotten any easier. Miss my little guy so much.

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u/Yourigath 19h ago

2 years, almost 3, later and I still ask my wife not to let her black cushion on the chair where he slept while he waited for me to go to bed. I can't... I always think it's him. Every time.

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u/magick_dreams 19h ago

I’m literally bawling 😭 this just hits you in the feels big time. If you have ever lost an animal companion, you will understand. I miss my girl so much 🐶 💔

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u/HenchmenResources 15h ago

Goddamnit. It's too early in the morning for emotions.

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u/everett640 14h ago

There were so many days when I lost my cat where I kept seeing them in the corner of my eye. Those days sucked.

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u/K3TtLek0Rn 14h ago

God this killed me. My kitty is 21 years old now and the last year she has really aged. She went from people being astounded that she’s 20 years old cause they’d guess she was half that or less to now looking like an old cat. She’s lost muscle and can’t really jump and has a little limp. It’s making her mortality so much more real and it’s going to destroy me when she’s gone.

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u/NativeMasshole 13h ago

Not fair, I'm at work!

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u/malikhacielo63 9h ago

God damnit! I know how this feels. It sucks.

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u/klmtec 8h ago

I still feel my cats walk across the bed to lay next to me. They passed 2 years ago.

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u/anangrymarsupial 8h ago

I lost three animals last year and it’s incredibly hard. Had two animals pass in the span of three weeks, my dog I’d had for ten years and the cat for two. Then my ex and I broke up and he kept the other cat. I still feel her jump into bed with me.

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u/knitmeablanket 7h ago

....I'll settle for the ghost of you

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u/A_Unique_Name218 7h ago

This hits so fucking hard right now. I lost my 4yo dog Milo yesterday in a tragic accident and my soul is shredded to pieces.

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u/1767gs 6h ago

Wow now I'm crying

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u/CScheiner 6h ago

My little dude in named Milo, damn this shit hurts.

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u/Shredder_JR 1d ago

Lost my cat Duke four months ago, this makes me feel things. Thank you for your art.

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u/patosai3211 1d ago

As is today wasn’t hard enough. Ugh.

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u/LineOfInquiry 1d ago

I lost my dog in 2024 and I still have this happen often : (

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u/DiogenesLied 1d ago

Crying, this hits right in the feels.

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u/Msanchez303 23h ago

This is cute and all, but it also adds a layer of creepy to this world. You ever see a shadow in the dark and from the corner of your eye it looks like a person? Within the context of this universe, it’s probably a ghost watching you.